I have a wall I have built around me to protect me from pain.
I know I shouldn’t have put it up but if it comes down I fear I’ll go insane.
It allows me to hide behind it so no one can see the real me,
Because if they knew everything, they’d walk away eventually.
This wall makes it hard to get close to anyone around,
Because if I do I’m afraid the wall might come down.
Then I will be force3d to let them see the true person inside,
And I will no longer have anything to hide behind.
It scares me to death to share with others the way I feel.
I know I need to do it but sometimes it’s hard to be real.
I’m scared if I share everything I’m setting myself up for despair,
And I’m not strong enough for all the pain I’d have to bare.
But, God I am so sick and tired of being stuck behind this wall.
I need Your help to make it break down and eventually fall.
Help me not to be so scared and in others to confide.
I know thru Your power I will be free and no longer have to hide.
09/30/02