I laugh when inside the tears are flowing.
I smile when my soul wears a frown.
Outwardly I look happy and peaceful;
Inwardly, the war rages.
I try when I know I will fail.
I live, though I want to die.
I seem to have it all together;
Looks sure are deceiving.
I feel the need to front when I want to be true.
I hide my emotions inside; that’s all I know to do.
I have a longing to change;
My questions is
How???
11/26/04