Author: tlc7998

I am Dying on the inside.The torment will not cease.Dancing on my tattered soul,Tearing it away piece by piece. Hearing the echoes of laughter,Ringing, loudly, in my head.I have become my own enemy,Sometimes wishing I were dead. Crying out to God for strength,To make it through another day.For, He is the only One, who is able,To take all of my pain away. 06/19/94

Stuck in depression’s prisonTrying to break freeLife isn’t what I envisionedAnd sometimes gets the best of meI walk through lifeWith a plastic smileMy heart bearing the rusty knifeOf pain shrouded in denial I used to stand in wonderOf the beauty all around meNow I feel like I’m going underIn the perpetual sea of obscurityGod, please… Continue reading Melancholic Chimera

I have discovered that love is pain,It makes the once stable wax insane.Lives are totally turned upside down,Wherever this four letter word abounds. It sneaks upon you when you least expect,And with it’s poison, your heart, it infects.Love is toxic if you breathe it in,It’s a never-ending battle and it WILL win! If you open… Continue reading Love is Pain

Looking to the futureClinging to the past
Never moving forwardGetting nowhere fast Living through the painDay in and day outStruggling to surviveBasking in your doubt You think you’re aloneAnd no one can relateSo you push them awayIn prideful self-hate You don’t seem to realizeOther’s have been there tooThey just want to be thereAnd help see you… Continue reading Looking to the Future

Out of place,In this world.No where to go,No one to turn to.My heart cries,Longing to feel love.A wearied soul,Void of acceptance;Keeping a distance;For fear of rejection.Walking through life;An emotional outcast.Deep inside,Wanting to reach out,But I can’t.My heart has been broken,Beyond repair.So, forever more I will be… A loner. 11/24/04

I’m losingMotivationFor everythingAround I’m sinkingDeeperSoon I’llDrown I’m dyingSlowlyIn mySorrow I’m prayingFerventlyIt’ll endTomorrow I’m cryingDailyIn myBed I’m livingLifeLike I’mDead/ 01/12-05

Heart ParalyzedMy mind in a rageLiving my lifeTrapped in a cage Irrational fearsPossess my mindObstructing the truthLeaving me blind Not able to functionFrom day to dayStrangest of thoughtsGet in the way The internal warStill wages onNo peace will l findUntil I am gone 03/28/05

Being pulled a million different directions,Feeling guilty for not overcoming my imperfections,Trying to please everyone who is around me,Becoming frustrated when that reality will never be. Worrying about the way I look, bringing myself to tears,Hiding away from everything so I don’t have to face my fears,Making myself be silent about all I am feeling… Continue reading Insecurity

I smileBecause I have toI cryWhen I’m aloneI liveBecause they need meI dieWithin my soulI wakeBecause it’s expectedI sleepMore than I shouldI tryBecause I need toI failLike I knew I wouldI prayBecause I need a fortressI IgnoreGod’s grace so fullI hopeBecause it’s all I haveI despairI’m such a selfish soul

Cut my heart out of my chest,I don’t need it anymore.Please adhere to my request;On the ground, let my insides pour. Feed me to the wolves that are raging,That they may be content.From this battle I am disengaging,I am sick and tired of the torment. It is time to wave the flag so white;The victory… Continue reading I Resign